After my heart scans last week I get a call informing me that I have heart trouble! Totally unaware of this new development. Could be a malformation, could be a blockage, could be NOTHING a false positive. Nevertheless, on Monday morning I will undergo a heart catherization.
Of course, the hubby will be there,only because I will be under sedation. My MIL wants to join in on the fun and be there to support me. I'm trying to find the best way to tell her that I'm fine with just hubby. Long story short, my MIL made a promise to be there for me in the event my Mother passed away. Well, Mom did pass away almost 8 years ago. And, no matter how loving the gesture, it's NOT the same. I am used to my Mom being gone and I'm used to "just me". I'll try to be as nice as possible.
So, I digress. In the midst of all of this I am in horrible pain and doped up on painkillers due to my uterus staging some kind of revolt along with my ovaries. Bleeding,clotting, TMI!!!!! SORRY!! It's all part of the whole precancer stuff. Once again catch 22--need to be cleared for surgery in order to have the hysterectomy and have to have the heart cath. in order to be cleared. Holy Cow!!
Kind of scary--but I am not scared. Maybe I should be and I'm too drugged to know better. HA! I will keep you posted on any further developments. Hopefully,there will be none except surgery!! Be Blessed!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
A New Gig--Change IS "good", right?
There I was minding my own business when all hades breaks lose. Crap! :) For the last 2 years I have been looking for a J-O-B. I actually enjoyed being a lazy bum-but I digress. Employment did find me and I am back into the childcare industry. I complained and whined all the way thru my first week. Now, I've come to like my job--no one breathes down my neck, I have fun and I get paid. Voila, it's a MIRACLE! :)
The new employment gig has been put on hold because I have precancerous cells in my uterus. This will require a hysterectomy that I am HAPPILY awaiting. BUT the hysterectomy gig has been put on hold because my heart isn't stable. (HA! proof to all of the haters that I DO indeed have a heart!)I will be having heart scans for 3 days next week-which was resceduled from THIS week. My dear little hag came down with a horrible virus and of course she shared. Once again, putting a gig on hold.
In the middle of all of this, I was skyping with a psychic/medium friend of mine. (Insights from the Beyond on Paraspeak.com Monday from 7-9p.m.)He told me many things. Most important was about my health. Blood pressure issues,check, diabetes not in full control,check, heart disease,overweight check,check. THIS is my wake up call. No death predictions--but my life will be dramatically shortened if I don't make serious changes. Did I see this coming? Yep. Did I realize that someday I would have to pay the piper for all of my playing around? Yep. Just didn't want to say "hello" to this quite yet. Seriously though, when one gets "called out" by the Spirit--consider yourself warned.
So here is yet another "new gig" I am embarking on. Guess what? I am going to take you with me on this adventure. Time to be healthy again, time to be AMAZING as God intended me to be. Time to be a better,wife,mom,friend,daughter you name it. In order to do all that I will HAVE to put myself first--no easy feat. It is soooo much easier to worry and fix everyone else than it is yourself. My "stuff" seems so overwhelming. BUT I WANT to LIVE--fully and wholly. So off I go into the unknown. I shall keep all of my hags updated on my progress ans any pitfalls I may (will) encounter. Wish me blessings! In the words of Charlie....."WINNING!".
The new employment gig has been put on hold because I have precancerous cells in my uterus. This will require a hysterectomy that I am HAPPILY awaiting. BUT the hysterectomy gig has been put on hold because my heart isn't stable. (HA! proof to all of the haters that I DO indeed have a heart!)I will be having heart scans for 3 days next week-which was resceduled from THIS week. My dear little hag came down with a horrible virus and of course she shared. Once again, putting a gig on hold.
In the middle of all of this, I was skyping with a psychic/medium friend of mine. (Insights from the Beyond on Paraspeak.com Monday from 7-9p.m.)He told me many things. Most important was about my health. Blood pressure issues,check, diabetes not in full control,check, heart disease,overweight check,check. THIS is my wake up call. No death predictions--but my life will be dramatically shortened if I don't make serious changes. Did I see this coming? Yep. Did I realize that someday I would have to pay the piper for all of my playing around? Yep. Just didn't want to say "hello" to this quite yet. Seriously though, when one gets "called out" by the Spirit--consider yourself warned.
So here is yet another "new gig" I am embarking on. Guess what? I am going to take you with me on this adventure. Time to be healthy again, time to be AMAZING as God intended me to be. Time to be a better,wife,mom,friend,daughter you name it. In order to do all that I will HAVE to put myself first--no easy feat. It is soooo much easier to worry and fix everyone else than it is yourself. My "stuff" seems so overwhelming. BUT I WANT to LIVE--fully and wholly. So off I go into the unknown. I shall keep all of my hags updated on my progress ans any pitfalls I may (will) encounter. Wish me blessings! In the words of Charlie....."WINNING!".
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