When we left off in this soap opera I call "life" I was undergoing a heart scan/heart cath.$12,000.00 later, I have NO heart problems! False positive. Glad and relieved but,really, $12,000.00 for a FALSE positive? WOW!
On April 11th I under went a total hysterectomy. Able to be done with a scope much easier!! It was crazy because I drove there all by myself, went into surgery all by myself and was scared shitless all by myself! My hubby had to get our daughter off to school and I had to be there before the roosters wake. It worked for us. Yeah, it's kind of lonely to be there all by yourself contemplating EVERYTHING!! Anywho, went through the surgery fine. Yesterday at my 6 week check I found out that I did have the start of endometrial cancer---but it's all gone!! Praise God!!
What I want to share with you--especially over time--is what this whole ordeal has meant to me, how it has changed me. See, I had a Spiritual Epiphany of sorts. While in recovery, although no one is acknowledging this medically, I choked and pulled my airway out. I heard my nurse scrambling, sounding a little panicked that no one was helping her with me. And I passed back out into oblivion. BUT it wasn't oblivion, I sat up and got off the table and walked into a completely different demension. I left my body and didn't look back! I was greeted with utter joy by my Mom, my brother, friends, Grandparents. These folks have all passed over!! I don't think I have ever been so excited! It was so moving and so grand that words cannot explain it. We spoke of how I wasn't staying and I had lots to do with my hubby and daughter in the future. That they need me. It was all ok, sheer bliss, perfection.
Of course, the nurses later were talking ,as if I wasn't there, about my trouble breathing and being bagged for 3 minutes. That is my only confirmation that this happened from a medical standpoint.
Yet things changed and continue to change. My walk with God is closer and intimate. I feel the feelings of the soul. I appreciate and am grateful for EVERYTHING--good or bad. I can see it's true form. I have premonitions I can't explain. I have blocked or deleted friends on Facebook for their negativity. Negativity literally makes me ill. Life is just better.
So folks, I have no idea what truly happened. What I do know is I am here to live another day. I am going to take full advantage of it all!
Be Blessed!
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